I turned 47 today. I woke up thinking about the pros and cons of my full-time job – Mom – when instead, what ran through my head, where all things I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed about. Here\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s the list, as stupid and meaningless as it is:<\/p>\n
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I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed to be a mom among all the nannies in the pick-up line at school.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed to not clean my own house when Barbara Ehrenreich does — and that I secretly covet a team like Downton Abbey.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that I love to tend my own garden when other school families hire this out. <\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve never had a pedicure because I can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t imagine having a stranger sand my callouses. (Beside the fact I can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t stand the chemicals and working conditions in those shops.)<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that I have more hair on my legs than my blond husband.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that my chosen career — ordained minister — is no longer relevant since I became a Jew.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that my graduate degree, which\u00c2\u00a0took as many years of study and unpaid internships as Law or Medicine, only has the title of MDiv. (This is because when Law and Medicine changed from a Bachelor to a Doctor degree title there already was a Doctor of Ministry degree so the initial degree was given the title of Master!)<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that after all those years of soul searching and buckets of tears cried, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m still not the enlightened being I aspire to be.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that I can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t handle two school age children, when I know many calm and happy mothers of five or more! Some who even homeschool.<\/span><\/p>\n I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed that my body, which would look beautiful in a Renaissance nude painting, doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t look good in modern clothing.<\/span><\/p>\n I embarrassed that I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m clueless of popular music and culture, even though I really couldn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t give a damn.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Looking at this list makes me laugh. So many silly things to be embarrassed about. A new year, a new leaf, so the saying goes.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I turned 47 today. I woke up thinking about the pros and cons of my full-time job – Mom – when instead, what ran through my head, where all things I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed about. Here\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s the list, as stupid and meaningless as it is: I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m embarrassed to be a mom among all the nannies in […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-69","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-old-blog"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":73,"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69\/revisions\/73"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/rachele.rosi-kessel.org\/weblog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}